When my mind goes blank..

I'm not in a very good mood while writing this.

Today is the last day of my theory finals. Next week will be the practicals.

Today's last paper "killed" me.. *wuahhhhhhhhh* Hm.. at this rate I just hope I could pass the exams; doing really well is probably out of the question for this subject. The first half of the paper yesterday wasn't bad but today my mind went blank and I could barely remember some things. I'm disappointed and frustrated because of that. It reminds me of the times I was in college when my results seemed to be getting worse the harder I tried. I felt really down during those times. I even started thinking, "Really, how stupid can I be?" *sigh* the limits of my academic ability...

Anyway, I survived that period and things became better after that. It would be really stupid of me if I were to repeat the whole process again. "No, I won't go there anymore, I should know my learning style and subject approach better by now", I kept thinking that way. Oh well, if I'm disappointed today then I only have myself to blame. Throughout these 1 month I prayed for peace of mind and calmness so I could absorb and recollect well, but then again, there's still a lot of lacking on my part. I'm sure God has blessed me with all I need but I could've done more to be worthy of His blessings.

Now, I could only pray for the strength to receive whatever outcome it may be. If I succeed then I'll dedicate it to Him whom has given me abundantly. To be honest, failing is not an option for me since I don't want to waste more time (I'm already behind as it is) and money would be a big problem since I don't think I have 2000 bucks to repeat a paper *shivers*. My sponsor wouldn't pay for exam retakes (of course, who would sponsor for failing huehue) and I, for sure do not want to burden my family with that amount. Besides, if I could work out that much amount of money, I would rather use it to help my sister with her tuition fees since she didn't get a full sponsorship (it's a pity because her MCE results was way better than mine - she got straight As! sometimes the world can be a bit unfair, i know. Still, we're continuously praying for her). It was good enough that my parents do not have to worry about my expenses or bother about sending me money since I know they've got a lot on their hands at the moment. I definitely wish to contribute to their ease not add on to their burden, or else I wouldn't have decided nor could I have afforded to continue studying.

Oh, I just found out that there is a crack on my laptop huehue. It's been working faithfully for me for the last 5 years..poor lappy. Okay, I feel better now. Mood is slightly increased ++ kekeke ^^

I think I'll go search for some interesting vids to watch now. It's an off day!!

At A Drop Of A Helmet...

The IA results and carry-marks for all the subjects are out today.

I'm thankful I passed all, although some barely - I'm content with the carry marks. I'll try to do better for the finals next week. Definitely expecting it to be tiring -_-" Even this last IA is so tiring huehue..

I went out with Glean today. We went to the forex, eat and do a little bit of shopping (a little bit??) *sigh* I admit I indulged more than intended today. My main purpose was actually just to accompany her and stop by at Gourmet for some soy milk and tofu. I ended up doing more (of buying, that is). Oh well, I won't be going out again any time soon anyway. Next week, examination will be kicking off (again!) and it's going to be two "very long" weeks for me. Hm, let's not think about how hard it will be and focus on doing well ^^

Oh, I have something to share from my numerous auto-rickshaw rides. One thing I noticed is the different shapes and styles of helmets worn by the motorbike riders. Back home, they would all be almost the same - having to pass certain standards before being allowed for sale and use by traffic users. Here, however, the scenario is different. I see some old-school helmets which are not allowed for use in Malaysia anymore and also some very interesting styles of helmets - there are some that look like polo or baseball cap, some rounded bowl-like shape, etc. They're pretty amusing to look at, some look cute too (especially if they are worn by those cute grandfathers) haha.

Oh well, just like sticking to the right lanes, use of a standard helmet seems difficult to be implemented here (is it?). Anyway, I had 2 of the worst auto rides I've ever experienced today. There were a number of times I thought we almost hit other traffic users, but I must admit, to be able to drive here is really a skill on the auto-drivers' part. I would've got a headache and a heart attack if I were to drive in these conditions hohoh.

Now, decision-making time: sunglasses - should i keep the "unusual frame" or exchange it for the aviator look huehue. Decision remains to be made till tomorrow..

Kaapi Nirvana (with ice-cream please)

Officially announcing the 3rd IA is over. Today is the last day - I ended with Pharmacology practical. I hope I did well? I'm too sleepy to think about it now. Will update tomorrow.... or soon. Soft pillows are calling me. Goodnight. God bless one and all.